Pain of losing a close friend
I am an easygoing person with decent nature, in my late 20’s. This is a true story of what i have been through when i lost my close friend for Cancer at the age of 13 years. Here we go !
Since my childhood, i used to travel with my mother to spend my summer vacation at country side where my grand parents and other close relatives used to live. I would always eagerly wait for summer to come as i could have fun playing with my cousin, a best friend with whom i used to share everything and enjoy to the core like any other child of my age does. Never did i expect that one such vacation would turn into a nightmare for me.
I was in my early teens and travelled to my grand parent’s place on the same day that i finished my academic year at school. My maternal uncle had arranged a religious event at his home where all the close friends and relatives had gathered. Kids, including me, were playing and having good time but my cousin, a close buddy of mine was sick and just then returned home after consulting a doctor. He looked weak and the charm he used to have in his face was gone . Me as a child thought that just because of flu he is dull and tried to change his mood by including him in the game we were playing and roamed around together to a near by play ground on bicycle but still i noticed that he was weak and pale with no smile in his face.
The next day by the time i woke up, he had gone to have some medical tests that were suggested by the doctor and returned home lately with his dad constantly crying like a baby. i was with my cousins in the living room ,clueless of what’s going on and relatives were trying to console my uncle after knowing the reason. From the discussions of relatives over there, i came to know that my cousin was in the final stage of Leukemia and at that point i was completely blank with lot of questions in my mind with no answers. Moreover in the same year of my academics, i had studied about Leukemia in my biology subject as a deadly disease with no complete cure. The very next morning ,my aunt and uncle took my cousin to a close city where there was a Hospital treating the Cancer patients.
From there on i was slowly getting to shatter internally but was still in frequent touch with my cousin over phone and cracking jokes to make him feel good. During the course of his treatment, few of our relatives visited him in the hospital and i was also looking forward to go see him but afraid from inside to see his condition at the hospital. However myself and my parents planned to visit him as it was already 4 weeks from the day his sickness was diagnosed and he was still at the hospital. We started from our home and reached half way ,we received a call of his demise ! Yes he was gone from this world forever. The moment i heard this news from my father, i lost my mind and collapsed instantly.
After sometime we travelled and reached to my cousin’s hometown where his burial would take place. Arrangements for his burial were being done and my mind was wandering with lots of questions which a teen would have in that condition. Few hours later, we heard the siren of Ambulance and rushed outside to see that my Cousin’s corpse was brought down and his parents crying constantly. For a moment i felt like the entire world has stopped moving and i could not digest the fact that he is no more. When I went close to him, i felt like he is in deep sleep and would awake by my waking him which i used to do when we sleep together during our holidays.
I didn’t know what had happened to me, not even a single tear came out of my eyes . It might be because my heart was still not accepting the fact which was in front of my eyes. Few moments later he was carried in a coffin and buried right in front of my eyes. This was the point from when a jolly, funny and crazy boy became completely silent.
From then ,loneliness took over me and i always wanted to be alone and avoided gatherings. I could not even spend time to play with my class mates.
I tried hard and focused on academics .Currently ,at the age of 28, i am working for a reputed company but this entire story is still fresh in my mind. 15 years of time still couldn't soothe the pain that i still have deep inside me.
I wish nobody should go through such moments in their life. Every person should have a happy and peaceful life, cheers !
